You know, I thought I was done with feels for the actual show.
Yeah, you know what show I'm talking about.

.... It's time for another DP rant journal. I would suggest leaving now before you get sucked up into this black hole I call my emotions.
I've already 'covered' my dedication to the show a while back, what with that 'DP rant and pledge. Please enjoy' thing.

... I now know that that pledge didn't even begin to show my liking- no, adoration- for this show. *Shot for trying to sound serious and dramatic*

My mom keeps saying things like, 'Oh, you'll grow out of it' and 'You seriously think you'll like the fact that you painted your walls the same exact color as Danny's eyes a few years from now?' (And yes, for the record, I did. Me and my mom actually made a bet, that, if I'm still in the Phandom by the time I'm 16, she'll paint the walls with darker green swirls so it looks like the GZ- like I wanted originally.) And, honestly, I do think so. I'm dead serious when I reply, 'Yes, I will.' (SEE WHAT I DID THERE WITH THAT PUN? 'DEAD' SERIOUS- *Shot a million times*)

I guess it's due that I tell you how the heck I got into this fandom, what with the lack of explanation to it all.

It all started because of Avatar: The Last Airbender.
Yes, you heard right. I got into the Phandom because of another fandom.
You see, I was so obsessed with Avatar that I bought all three books. With. My. Own. Money. (So that's pretty big.)
Of course, Nick made the DVDs, so it had advertisements. One of said ads was for one of the 'NickPicks' volumes.
Every time I actually watched the preview, I would see Danny. Beating the crud outta Skulker, Vlad, you name it. Every time, I would remember Urban Jungle-Which, despite the fact that it's in the third season, is one of my favorite episodes- and Mystery Meat. Those are the only two episodes I actually recall seeing live. I mean, back when the show was on, my family didn't ave DVR, so...

Now, to delve into my childhood a bit: I was a real scaredy cat. Still am. So, before I finally fell asleep, I would try to find something to occupy my mind; something other than the scary monsters that 'haunted' my room.
One of those things was roleplaying, before I even knew the phrase, or what it meant. I would pretend I was Sam in Urban Jungle, even if I don't ever really remember being an avid watcher of the show back then.
For some bizarre reason, I think I actually want to be the 'damsel in distress', even though characters whom's main purpose is to fill that role bug the heck outta me. I have no idea why. I just want to be that. Maybe it's because the damsel always gets saved, and by the hero. Maybe I just want to be that damsel because because I want a hero to save me; to have my own 'happily ever after'. *Forever alone*

So, I would pretend to be Sam, and that, for some reason, helped my suffer through my 'the boggie man is gonna get you' nights.
And that's what I remembered when I saw that commercial, over and over again.

Of course, I instantly thought, 'Oh, I'll just watch it on Nick.com!' Heh... you know how that turned out.
So, when it only showed the part before the first commercial break. I searched 'danny phantom episode online free' on Google. and viola! A website appeared.
A website, that, because of Megavideo getting shut down, is now unable to be used anymore.
Anyway, the first thing I did when I got on there was watch the rest of Urban Jungle. Then, I remembered Mystery Meat, and watched that. I was hooked, to say the least.
Since it was summer, I had all the time in the world to watch the eps, and finished watching all of them in a week, I think- what with all the staying up past my bedtime and hoping to God my parents wouldn't walk in and catch me up and take my computer away. Yeah, I was so obsessed I would stay up into the night, despite the imaginary monsters watching over my shoulder. ('Cause even nightmares like DP, lol.)

And this is the part where it gets deep. Like, real deep.
Just keep in mind, I was entirely smitten with this series, for lack of a better word.

The whole time I was watching it, I knew, I knew so well that the series was over. But, since I hadn't even seen more than half the episodes, it was like I had my own channel, and it was premiering new episodes just for me.
So, it hit me hard when I finished watching Phantom Planet for the first time.

I swear, that has got to the the most depressing moment in my life. I didn't cry, but I was devastated.
I was heartbroken. I was literally in love with this series, so when that happened, I just flopped down on the floor, and sat there, in disbelief.

I am not joking, guys. I tried to reason with myself, all the reasons it could come back (Since, at the time, I had no idea just how long it had been canceled.) That's when it hit me, that it hadn't just ended, it had been, brutally, unfairly cancelled, and I could do nothing about it.
I gotta say, I'm actually guilty about not being in the Phandom earlier. Maybe, just maybe, if I had been in one of those 'Save DP' rallies, I could have made a difference. That I could've tipped the scales and helped it go on. 'Cause, you know, 'One person can make a big difference'.

Another childhood moment: I was a creative person. But, since the only drawing style I knew was Avatar's, and that was just too freaking hard, (It still is XD), I had no idea I actually had a talent in art.
So, the only thing I could do, was write.
The thing is, though, I had no motivation whatso ever. The largest amount of writing I had done was ONE. PAGE.
My only fall-back for some closure was writing.

So, I sat down, and started writing a third season.
I know, I know, 'Real original, Claire'. Keep in mind, I had never set foot on dA, or really actually knew anything about the wonderful place that is the internet.

I wrote, like, two whole chapters. The first one is what inspired 'Even If...', although I'm gonna re-write that later...
TWO. FREAKING. CHAPTERS. That is the longest I ad ever written, at that point.
DP left me with so many...residual emotions, that I actually got motivation, something I had been severely lacking.

I re-watched the episodes (though I stayed far away from PP), and made my first OC, Christie. (Who, needless to say, was a huge look-alike sue, though I'm rather proud to say that what I do remember from her not-thought-about personality, that it wasn't similar to Danny's in the least. I think.) She got a place in the story, then somehow, around last Halloween, I found dA. I cannot remember for the life of me how that happened, but it did. I posted Christie's drawings, some I made of Danny, and rejoiced in the fact that there were actually other DP fans.

Oh, yeah, I forgot. How I learned I could draw is thanks to Danny.
You see, like I said earlier: I didn't know I could draw since I was so intimidated by the only style I knew that I didn't even try.
So, you can see why I was a little less scared by DP's style.
I looked up a 'how to draw Danny' vid, did it, and, frankly, I sucked, but at least it was better than how I'm sure any drawing I did of Aang would have turned out.

So... That's how I got to deviantART. That's how I got actual motivation to write. That's how I learned I could draw. That's how I learned I'd been missing out on something big all my life. That's why I'll never stop loving this show.
All because of that one ghost-boy.

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You probably aren't wondering why I decided to post this, since you probably haven't made it this far down. You probably left as soon as I said 'this is gonna be a rant'. But, if you actually did- Which is unlikely at best- then thank you for suffering trough my obsessiveness. I regret nothing.

DragonsAndDP. I found their Tumblr, thanks to TumblrBot.
And, I'm serious. I thought I was done feeling tears prickle at my eyes because or something canon.
But, apparently not.

Just... this. This post: [link]

I have no idea why, but a good, honestly understandable, logical, headcanon, or whatever the heck that is, like that made my heart skip a beat.

I MEAN GOOD GRACIOUS. MY FEELS.

Thankyouformakingitthisfarkthanksbye- *Runs away*